Going Through the Dip
Today I felt like quitting.
I'm tired and discouraged. There are 118 days left until June 19 and it feels like I've been doing this forever. But I know these feelings are normal and expected. And I know this state of mind will pass – I just have to lean into the discomfort and keep going. One step at a time.
It will get better. And then it will get amazing.
This week, my goal is to contact a radio station and a well-known newspaper columnist to get local exposure. There are also a number of other items on my list for the event in terms of logistics and PR, and now is the time to start "upping my game".
Last week I did 47 km – which puts me about a month ahead of schedule in my training. This is excellent.
Tomorrow will be a great day.
4 Comments
Feb 21, 2010 11:24 pm |
Congrats!
How long did it take you? Maybe a tweak in your endurance nutrition might help, if you're feeling lo?
Feb 22, 2010 8:08 am |
Hang in there Little Buddy… you're almost at the home stretch!
Feb 22, 2010 1:21 pm |
Thanks Lynn
Michelle
Feb 22, 2010 1:42 pm |
Thanks Peter. It took me 4 hours and 15 minutes – quite slow but I was working on time in the seat rather than speed. Actually I have been pretty careless with my nutrition – plus dehydrated. You have a very good point and I’ll need to fix that.
I think another part of this problem is psychological – right now I’m struggling internally because I’m afraid of what I’m heading into. There’s no going back now. It’s not the physical exertion – it’s doing this in front of so many people. What if I fail to finish? What if I cry? What if I puke? What if nobody shows up? I’ve got a thousand doubts and fears rolling through my consciousness and I’m fighting them off as they come at me.
But I’ve faced this internal struggle before. So it’s not a surprise. I’m going to win.
Thanks for your comments!